You know something that’s really, really awesome? I finally feel at peace with food. I’m not worrying about when or what I’m going to eat. I can go to parties and restaurants without stressing over what there will be to eat. I look forward to eating meals, but I don’t obsess over them for hours beforehand.
I think a big reason is because I haven’t been using Instagram. I still post on occasion, but I rarely scroll through my feed. I follow a lot of those ED recovery accounts that post every single meal they eat. I found that I compared what I was eating to what they were eating. Not good! Now that I’m not seeing what/when they eat, I’m being more intuitive with what I want to eat. And it’s awesome.
I still want to write my whole story of struggling with an ED. I just didn’t want to write it if I was still having problems, but now I feel like I’m truly at peace with food and I’m going to try to write that post!
Enough rambling! Time for my eats since it is What I Ate Wednesday!
On Monday I had zero appetite (at least until dinner!). Some days you just feel bloated, you know? In the past I would’ve struggled with eating breakfast and lunch because I wasn’t physically “hungry”. It wasn’t even a problem yesterday because I know that I need to fuel myself, even if I don’t feel hungry. I take that as an opportunity to eat healthy!
OOIAPBJ (overnight oats in a peanut butter jar). I topped them with more peanut butter because there wasn’t enough left in the jar. Something I wouldn’t have done in the past.
Big veggie sandwich with avocado, black beans, tomato, mushroom, and kale + an apple. It was actually really hard to finish this because I felt so full!
A few of the nuts from the lunch picture + a piece of leftover rhubarb scone. Note: the scones are much better the day of. They got a bit soggy from the rhubarb!
Monday was my brother Evan’s birthday! 8 whole years old. Makes my ripe old age of 15 feel pretty ancient. Here we have sloppy joes (with pulled pork under it!), baked beans, cheesy potatoes, coleslaw, potato salad, and carrots. times 2. No vegetarian for me.
Sloppy joes, I’m sorry. The 9 years I refused to eat you were a waste. Never again will I refuse your scrumptious mess.
The cake was actually pretty nasty. I don’t like that fake fruity filling. I picked that out and just ate the cake and ice cream! I had a nice food baby the rest of the night. Worth it.